Wednesday, February 21, 2007
Sunday, February 18, 2007
Not really sure...
Saturday, February 17, 2007
Ahhhhhh
I will then:
- walk into the post office
- address a priority mail envelope with mentor's info
- place my 40 page thesis paper in the envelope
- begine feeling small bouts of anxiety because all my work and time is going to be graded in a matter of days
- force myself to seal the envelope and not look for any other things that I could possibly but needlessly change
- go to the counter and request the envelope to be tracked so I don't get screwed
- watch as the clerk stamps the envelope and tosses it emotionlessly into the outgoing mail tub
- breathing rapidly, my legs will lead me back to my car where it's warm
- put my head on the steering wheel and cry because it's done and I can't change one more thing, and I can't call my dad to have him edit it just one more time
- drive home to Kenny and sit on the couch and think about all the things I COULD HAVE done before turning it in
This is what I think will happen. When I get the nerve to get dressed and make that 1 mile drive, I'll finish this post and you'll know what REALLY happens.
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UPDATE
It's done. I mailed it! And I really did get the queasy tummy feeling, and I felt like I was going to puke as I handed over the envelope, but I did it, and it's done, and I'm home and OH SO HAPPY! I can't believe that I don't have to work on it anymore, that's how much it consumed my life EVERY DAY. What a feeling!
I called my dad on my way home from the post office to tell him. I think he was just as relieved as I was....no more phone calls asking him silly ridiculus questions about a comma or somthing. He probably feels just as good.
To change the subject BECAUSE I CAN NOW!! my flowers started drooping rather quickly, so I came up with a quick remedy for them. I thought because the roses were so heavy and still not fully bloomed, I needed to save them somehow from snapping off the top of the step. And this is what I did:
They look absolutely gorgeous! I had to play around with the camera too, so here's some more....
Scroll down for the Saturday Photo Hunt.
Friday, February 16, 2007
Saturday Photo Hunt
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Happy Valentine's Day!
I'm at home today, on another snow day! Three snow days in two weeks. I must be dreaming. Too bad I'm not packing.
This time, it really is a true snow day. I'm not sure how many inches we got, but it was a lot! When I left school yesterday, my principal said, "See you Thursday." So everyone at work was pretty much banking on this day off.
Last night, it took us an hour and a half to drive home. And this is what it looked like:
And this was the spedometer
But since I love the snow, I'm not complaining. It's beautiful! And cold, but I still love it. And Happy Valentine's Day too! I'm sending the love to all my blogger friends and non-blogger friends that read this too. Love you all! This is what Kenny is getting today.....
Some chocolate luscious lips, a chocolate Spiderman, homemade chocolate chip cookies and a cute little red monkey that will inevitably end up in my classroom. Can you tell he is just SO loved? I wonder what I'm getting....
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
Sunday, February 11, 2007
Happy Birthday Mom and Grandma
Saturday, February 10, 2007
Photo Hunt
Friday, February 09, 2007
Whew
Today was the 100th day of school, which is a big deal for the little ones. It was a LONG DAY. Parties at school are wonderful for the kids, and a pain for teachers. I hate to complain about the kids' celebrations, but it is SO HARD to keep 20 kids focused on anything when there is food, juice, and sweets (ONLY on special occasions) in the room. And since our students wear uniforms, when they have free dress as they did today, things can get off the hook quickly. I kept them busy all day with 100s day centers all dealing with the number 100 somehow, but I feel like I worked 5 days in 8 hours. I'm pooped! When the last kid was gone today, I fell in my chair at my desk and put my head down and didn't move for 10 minutes. That felt great! I'm still dragging. But, I know my students had a good day, and I'm sure they will be yacking about it all weekend to whoever will listen. Here is a picture of them today with their 100th Day of School shirts on. You can probably tell that they colored the shirts themselves.
And here's the cake that another teacher made for our class. It's huge, but you can't really tell how big it was. And it was YUMMY. The cake itself was that rainbow chip.....hmmmm. Can you find the nibble marks I left? It was hard to be in the same room with that cake and not be tempted. I sound like one of my students now.....
Today is one of those days when I'm really thankful for the weekend. Just to be at home, inside where it's warm. Who cares if the place is a mess with boxes and all sorts of stuff? It's still home. And it's right where I'm happy to be right now.
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
Another Free Day!
Monday, February 05, 2007
I'm Free!
Sunday, February 04, 2007
Thankful
Since we are getting ready to move, I find myself stepping over boxes, falling on piles of clothes and shoes, losing everything, finding it, and then re-losing it. Basically, our life is everywhere it can fit inside these small four walls (and a storage unit). I usually clean once a week, but I haven't in about 3 weeks because I kept thinking, what's the point? We're moving! No need to clean! Mind you I have kept the kitchen and bathroom tidied cause that's just gross, but for the most part, there is shit everywhere. And when I look around at all the messes, I am even LESS motivated to do anything about it. So, I guess, for now, it's okay to live like slobs, cause there is an end in sight. And when we move there will be more room to spread things out (like the basement). I remember Tasha talking about how everything was so chaotic last summer when she moved, and I feel her pain now!
I guess when I think about all the things that I could complain about, this is nothing. There are many health related issues going on with my family and loved ones right now, so when I complain about trivial stuff like moving, the snow, a bill, whatever it may be, I instantly feel guilty. What am I really complaining about? I have a WONDERFUL life, and I'm privilaged to be happy, healthy, and ABLE to move.
I look at my grandparents.....married 60 years last summer. My grandma took a nasty fall about 2 weeks ago and is in a short term nursing home facility to recoop. My grandpa doesn't get to see her every day. Did I mention they have been married 60 years? That's 21,900 days of getting to see each other almost every day. And now they can't. My grandparents are 88 and 91, so it's hard for them to recover from things that I would bounce back from quickly, but I can only imagine how sad they are not to be together. They still hold hands, and listen to each others' stories as if it were the first time they were hearing it. That's real, true love, and it just saddens me that they can't see each other every day. Hopefully my grandma will be home soon.
And then there's a family friend who is not doing so well with her cancer. There's little hope. And little time. And then I immediatly think of the aunt we lost last year to cancer, and I can't help but think, who's next? I know it's awful to say it, but that's exactly what my mind does. It shouldn't take all these sadnesses around me to appreciate my life and all the privilages that I have. I should be doing that anyway. But I do take things for granted, and it's these times that make me stop and think about what really matters. I think we are all probably guilty of doing this from time to time.
So, whoever reads this post today, do me a favor--take the time to stop and think about the things you have (non-materialistic) and the people you love (past and present) and just really BE THANKFUL. Be thankful that you can be thankful for these things, and that you are not praying for heat, a car to get to work, a job, a cure for cancer. And if you are praying for those things, know that I'm praying for you too.