Wednesday, January 02, 2008

:(


Officially Unhappy.


That's what I am right now. I have to go back to work tomorrow. The work that never ends. It comes home with me and infiltrates my personal life. It zaps all my energy so when I'm home, I'm worthless. I have to FORCE myself to go to the gym and even psych myself out and tell my head that if I sweat it out on the treadmill my reward is swimming (laps that equal another workout). That's my treat? More energy spent? I'm just whining. Really, I'm fine, and once I'm back at work tomorrow, everything will be great. I'll have missed the kids (although I don't right now) and I'll be excited to hear all about their Christmases and all the new gym shoes and video game stuff they received from Santa. But right now I just can't comprehend being "on" all day tomorrow. And Friday too. Ugh. One day at a time. I know I shouldn't complain about getting a nice vacation, but it's just that much harder to go back to work. Really, it is. No more moments of complete silence and peace (it only happens on vacation/weekends when Kenny isn't home) and no one needing something from me. I just want to be in the comfort of my own home/neighborhood planning my wedding. And that's all. If I go to bed now, I'll get about 6 hours of sleep, which means I'll be pissy all day because I'll be tired. So I'm screwed. I might as well stay up late and wait for Kenny to be done working and deal with the tiredness because I'm not even ready to sleep yet. This must be the whiniest post I've ever written. I sound like a mix between my students and my puppy. I promise I'll be in a better mood tomorrow. Maybe if I don't sleep tonight, I won't have to go to work. Either that or we'll get another big dump of snow like on New Years. My fingers are crossed. I wonder if my students are dreading tomorrow as much as I am. I'll find out in a few hours. Goodnight.

5 comments:

Tee said...

I can almost promise you the students are as depressed as you are. I know my own daughter was really dreading going back to school. Luckily, she has had two extra days off (snow days!) I think we all feel a little unhappy after the holidays. Suddenly everything is back to normal again and there's no fun in normal, is there? LOL Have a great first day back, just keep reminding yourself that is 2008! It's yours and Kenny's year!

Melissa said...

Good Morning Sunshine!

Hope your first day back went well. Reading your post brought me right back to Woodward. I think I'll stay right here where I am (in my robe and slippers:)

Tasha said...

"I just want to be in the comfort of my own home/neighborhood planning my wedding."
One of the funniest things I think you ever said...Have a great day!

Lori said...

You can bet they were just as unhappy as you! We went back today too but only the teachers (for those DREADED meetings!). We have kids on Monday. Hope you got back in the groove once you were there. The alarm clock was NOT something I missed over vacation!!

Vader's Mom said...

So, how did the day go?

I was dreading going back to work on Wednesday, so I can understand!