Saturday, May 17, 2008

Pooped

I am so mentally drained. And I don't have my own kids, but I can't even imagine what I would feel like if I did.

I have been drained for weeks now. Probably lots has to do with just getting married, and the craziness being overwith immediatly, but I'm so loving having my life back at this point. But working all day and coming home is just about all the mental challenges I can handle. Kenny likes for me to be included (submersed) in his business and one day, honestly, I will not teach and work with him. But not for at least 4 or 5 years, except maybe sooner when kids get here, but that's all up in the air for now. My point is eventually I will be working with him mostly from home, but not for a while. It's too much right now for me to process. And I feel bad when I say that I'm too tired or don't feel like going with him places, and sometimes I fake it and go because I don't want him to be diappointed or just want to be with him because we are rarely home together during the week, but other times, I just can't do it. I'm not sure he understands, but I do tell him when I'm drained, and sometimes he's cool with it, and other times he complains.

Today, which this is the point of my post, I promise, I woke up and told him I was going to the gym and then to a friend's house to drop off a birthday gift. I did all of that and came home and cried. He had cleaned the livingroom (I DEEP clean the house every weekend and when I left this morning I had asked him to pick up his stuff and put it away to make my cleaning easier, something I NEVER ask him to do, ever) and vacuumed, put some things away, was understanding about me wanting to stay home tonight and not accompany him on his job (thank GOD), grilled a burger for me on the new grill, and is mowing the lawn right now. I think he is finally REALLY getting it. I'm drained. And he's picking up the slack. I love this man so much.

So Kenny, when you read this, and I know you will, I love you for doing things like this to make me feel better. You are already a wonderful husband!

3 comments:

Tan said...

What a guy!! Marriage is 50/50 and it sounds to me like you and Kenny are off to a great start!! I'm so happy for you! Hope you get some rest soon. Keep your eye on the quickly approaching summer vacation!!

Lori said...

What a guy - maybe I should make Kevin read this post! ha! I am feeling overwhelmed with the end of the year school stuff and then trying to keep up at home...how do people with kids do it?

Tasha said...

what a guy...kenny has a good heart!